I'm Having a Love Affair with Yoga

Don't tell my husband, but I am having a love affair with YOGA.  Yes, it's reached that point.

 I find myself preferring yoga to all other activities. 

When I realized my moms' night out this week will conflict with my Friday night yoga class, I was beyond despair! 

When I realized that the children's Christmas program would conflict with the following Friday night yoga class, I wanted to scream and shout at the top of my lungs.

 When another dear friend sent a message about getting together with multiple friends the first Friday in January, again, my thoughts turned to YOGA.

Is it wrong to be obsessed with my dear flexible, zen-creating friend?Will all my friends start avoiding me because they know that I am being a harlot with yoga?

 

Will my children find out?

 

What will they say?

 

 

Progress

As I wrote last night, I am having a love affair with yoga.  Perhaps I am merely in the honeymoon phase.  Perhaps the passion cannot last.  Perhaps. 

Or perhaps I have found something with which I will have a lifelong relationship.

I hope that is the case. 

As I make progress, I do find myself loving it more. 

For example, last night's class was an excellent, challenging class from one of my favorite instructors.  One of the final poses of the evening was crow pose.  Although crow isn't terribly difficult, initially, I found it tough.  Maybe my arms weren't strong enough to hold my chubby body.  Now I can do it.   I also can shift my body to where I am on my head.  When I first began yoga, the feeling of any pressure on my head was disturbing and uncomfortable. 

My flexibility is slowly improving, though I still have a long way to go.  I cannot get over how difficult it is for me to reach with my arms behind my back.  I often wonder if it is truly lack of flexibility or if it is that my arms are short. 

I'm happy with my progress. 

photo credit:  pixabay

Three Months of Yoga

Does three months of regular practice of yoga sound like a lot to you?   In the scheme of all things zen, it actually is not.  Yet I feel good about three months.

 I attend some advanced classes and I do a pretty good job of keeping up at this point.  That's something.  I still say how much easier it will be for me when I shed some of these unwanted pounds.  I was especially thinking that tonight at my class. 

The instructor who is already fairly tough decided to hold each pose longer than usual.  As my arms were burning in plank pose and downward facing dog, I couldn't help but dream of weighing 50 pounds less.

 As I still struggle to keep learning poses and mastering poses, I do not focus as much on breathing, relaxing.  However, I do already see the benefits to this aspect of yoga practice.

Prior to starting my yoga journey, I could never breathe (it seemed).  My breathing has improved.

As I have mentioned before, there is definitely the benefit of less anxiety.  I would like to say that all anxiety has disappeared, maybe someday!

Three months ago, I could not do the tripod pose.  Today I did. 

Three months ago, my hands and wrists hurt for days after my first two classes.

Three months ago, I didn't know a cobra pose from an eagle pose.

Three months ago, I didn't know how much I would love yoga.

A New Option for Yoga

As I have mentioned, I have been without a vehicle for nearly a month now thanks to a paperwork nightmare that we are trying to straighten out.  The biggest issue has been me getting to the gym for my Yoga classes.  (thankfully, the children are in low activity mode right now)

My husband's work schedule has made it so I can get there occasionally, but not regularly like I need. 

I know so many folks who do their yoga at home always. 

I am just not good at exercising at home. 

I'm just not.

A month or so ago, I downloaded a yoga app, but I found it boring. 

Yesterday I decided to check out youtube.  I found many yoga videos on there.  I started one by that Jillian chick from the Greatest Loser show, but the video wasn't working.  The next in line was one by Denise Austen.  Although I am not a big fan of her, I decided to try it. 

It was a 30 minute class that was fairly basic.  It went much more quickly than if I were trying to do it at home without a class.  It wasn't great, but it was something which was more than I was getting. 

So that is my plan.  From now on, I will try to do videos at home if I cannot get to the gym (which at this rate, who knows when I can drive my van again.)

Here's the youtube video that I watched. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=daoU86HqYPg

Some Much Needed Yoga!

Vehicle restrictions have made trips to the gym impossible this week.  I had high hopes of doing yoga at home, but it just didn't happen.  Tuesday morning was my last time to make it to Yoga class. 

Finally, today, my dear friend Mary drove me to one of my favorite classes.  The male instructor is probably in his sixties.  He wears his long hair in a ponytail and his clothes definitely make me think "hippie."  His classes are tough, but not too tough.  (sheepish grin) I sort of tricked my friend into the class by not telling her it was "advanced."  But seriously, I did his advanced class for my second class ever and was able to keep up. 

That's the great thing about yoga is that you can do as much as you can do.  If something is difficult, then change the pose. 

My body felt so incredibly tight today as though I had lost all flexibility in the short five days since my last class. 

Oh I do hope to some day be doing yoga every single day.  I do hope to get motivated enough to do it at home on the days that I cannot make it to the gym because often it is just too hard to get to the gym. 

I have done it at home a few times.  It's never the same. 

But yoga makes me feel good!  I feel both physically and mentally better when I am doing it!  The time spent in that class is so beneficial.  It helps my anxiety, it helps my mood. 

Now, back to the whole stuck at home without a car thing.  I'm hoping to go Tuesday evening after my husband returns from work if he gets home in time.  That's the question:  will he?

My Yoga Morning Could Have Been Better

There was a lack of sleep last night, perhaps that was part of it.  I awoke with the temptation to skip yoga.  I wasn't planning to skip it altogether.  I thought I'd go to a later class.  I believe there is an evening class on Tuesdays.  Yet, I realized that I may as well get out of bed because I was awake. 

I have come to realize that I am more off-balance at the early morning classes than I am later.  I couldn't hold a pose for the life for me today.  I wiggled, I wobbled, I wibbled, I woggled. 

The instructor did something I am not a huge fan of:  she held the poses for longer and did less.  I forget what that style is called, maybe Hatha.  I know I prefer the Vinyasa Flow yoga where the poses are held for less time.  My biggest problem with the longer held poses is that sometimes I have a pose that is especially tough for me.  If it is tough and I have a hard time holding it period, then the fifteen seconds of it will feel wasted to me. 

The instructor had some serious expectations for the strength of my arms today that is JUST NOT THERE. 

I wish I would start losing weight.  Yoga would be so much easier if I weighed forty pounds less.

Yoga Thoughts for Today

We are still down to one vehicle which hinders my ability to travel!  No driving means no yoga.  Well, it means no yoga classes.  I can still do yoga at home.  I just am not that good at doing it at home. 

Especially on a day like today where I am feeling lazy and tired. 

I did it though.  I am wearing very uncomfortable pants though which inspired this post:

http://www.bubblews.com/news/9362137-a-yoga-journey-comfy-clothes-are-a-must

It's sad when my comfy workout pants have become so tight that they are no longer comfortable. 

I really need to start dieting.  It's depressing me. 

That's not good stuff.

Yoga: Hope for the Newbie

Yesterday, my friend posted a photograph of herself in a difficult Yoga pose.  She was in a sort of back bend with one leg kicked upward.  I was impressed!  When I ran into her today, I asked her if she had always been that flexible and how long she had been practicing yoga.

Her response to the first inquiry was no, she has not always been that flexible.  Yay!  There is hope for me!

Her next answer was that she has been practicing yoga for two years. 

The other thing that gave me hope is that she has been doing it at home using a simple app on her own for all of those two years.  She has gained that much strength and flexibility by simply following an app. 

I'm having a rough week due to vehicle things.  Getting to my Yoga classes is going to be pretty much impossible.  So I will do it at home.  And I am going to learn to not make excuses anymore.  If I am home, I can squeeze in at least thirty minutes of Yoga. 

She seriously motivated me!

Photo credit:  my own

Yoga and Anxiety

I have been attracted to the thought of Yoga for quite awhile.  In fact, I tried a class probably ten years ago that was a pilates-yoga combination class at my then-current gym.  I wasn't impressed at the time.  It was probably too large a venue for a newbie like me.  I didn't try again. 

Then anxiety arrived in my life.  Initially, I seemed to manage it.  It went away.  Then my son died.  Anxiety returned in full force.  It became overwhelming.  I turned to prescription anxiety meds for help.  It helped me through those rough first holidays last year.  What I found, though, was that prescription medicine made me feel like a zombie.  I seriously had no emotion.  I didn't cry for months.  And I am a crier.  I went through my first Christmas without my son and I didn't cry.  Sure, I didn't want to be a basket case, but I wanted to feel my real emotions. 

So shortly after the holidays, I said bye bye to the prescription medicines. 

Exercise has always helped with my anxiety.  So I was trying to keep up with that as well.  As I started to feel a slight upturn in anxiety again, I decided to find a yoga class.  I belong to the YMCA which offers yoga classes.  So I had to find schedules that worked with me.  I did so.

Now it is over two months since I started and I can say that my anxiety has seemed under control.  I feel like I leave yoga class relaxed.  I can breathe easier, literally. 

I hated the idea of being tied to medications to function day to day.  I'm so glad I ditched them and found a more natural way to handle my stress.

The Yoga Chronicles 11/7/14

Sadly, today was a day without yoga.  I probably snuck in ten poses.  Maybe a total of five minutes or ten.  Tomorrow I shall definitely do it at home due to lack of transportation to the gym.  My plan is to do it immediately after finishing my coffee and breakfast (first htings first!  priorities!)

Sometimes I just wish I had more time to my day.  No, not sometimes.  All the time!  By the time I do what moms do, the day is gone.  And I don't even do close to what moms should do (i.e. clean house?).   I would love to do Yoga EVERY SINGLE DAY.  I would love to sneak in some cardio each day too... swimming?  elliptical?

http://www.bubblews.com/news/9327052-a-yoga-journey-none-nada-zip

Yoga would be easier if I were Skinny!

The practice of Yoga is so beneficial to me.  I can tell that after merely two months of doing it.  If only I could lose weight too, I can only imagine how much easier some of the poses would be. 

Example: 

Downward facing dog and plank poses put much of your weight on your arms and shoulders.  Boy, this is tough when you are overweight!  If I weighed fifty pounds less, my arms would be saying "this is a piece of cake." 

Another example:

many poses that require reaching or twisting seem to end up with my boobs in the way!  if they would shrink just a little, I think that could be much easier as well.

Regardless, I'm doing yoga and loving it.

Here's a post I wrote on my other site about Yoga today. 
http://www.bubblews.com/news/9274499-a-yoga-journey-after-a-break

Photo Credit:  my own

Time for Another Tree Photo

I did Yoga today which has become one my favorite pleasures.  (yoga, coffee, wine, and chocolate).  I'm writing posts on another site that are a journal of sorts for my yoga journey.  I hope to eventually feel like a Yoga expert, a guru, a yogi if you will.  Here's the post I wrote today about breathing. 
http://www.bubblews.com/news/9006421-a-yoga-journey-breathing
And btw, we did NOT do tree pose today.  Bummer.  That's my favorite.  We did do Eagle pose which is similar.

My Yoga Experience Today

I have a feeling I may post a lot of tree pictures when I write about Yoga.  Number one, I have a lot of tree photographs because I love the way they look.  Number two, I do enjoy the tree pose.  So hey, it works.  Though now that I think of it, I only did tree pose briefly today.  Perhaps I will do it again later.

I did twenty minutes of yoga at home today.  Here's a post from my other blog explaining why. 
http://www.bubblews.com/news/8981533-a-yoga-journey-i-chose-sleep-over-yoga

Of course, it was not quiet at all with an 8 year old and a 3 year old running around me. 

20 minutes is better than nothing though. 

The Good Stuff: Yoga

I have no photographs of myself practicing yoga.  Perhaps someday.  At this point, there is no way I'd like my chubby little body photographed in all those unusual positions. 

I do however have to say that Yoga definitely falls under the category of "good stuff" in my life these days.  I have to find time to focus on the good.  Sometimes that is so difficult after losing Nolan. 

The other day my husband said that I seemed less than enthusiastic about the prospect of sex that evening.  And I said to him (honestly) that I just don't feel enthusiastic about much these days.  Yoga is changing that though. 

Yoga Observations: Big Busted Women are at a Disadvantage

Here's a little post from my other site about my yoga experience today.

http://www.bubblews.com/news/8941105-yoga-for-the-bosomy-woman