It's Hard to think of Good Stuff

When I do think of good stuff, I feel guilty.  When I forget to be sad, I'm sadder. 

Here's good stuff:

Nolan was such a precious child, easy baby, good helper, loving, kind.

Liam continues to be fiery, spirited, loving.

Ciara is tenderhearted, a good helper, loving. 

Logan is sweet, loves to help, creative, loving.

Ella is a spitfire who brings laughter to me on sad days. 

There's good stuff even now.  I just have a hard time rectifying it with my grief.