up and down

My mind is going in a bazillion directions this evening. I have started several posts, but my thoughts have been too distracted to put words to paper.
My mind is thinking about the Kansas City Royals baseball game that is happening right now. They are playing their first post-season game since 1985. That is pretty exciting stuff!
Then there is the fact that I have a party happening in my house on Sunday. Yet here I sit on my behind drinking wine.
Of course, I am thinking of the wine and how good it tastes to my tired taste buds.
The thought crossed my mind about how tough marriage can be as I think of several friends who are trying to hold it together.
Yoga has crossed my mind, as well as the fact that I should stop eating pasta so I can lose weight.
How can I not think of my whiny 3 year old when she sits next to me crying for all sorts of things? Parenting advice anyone?
There you have it, the too many thoughts, the too many directions.
Photo Credit: pixabay +Three-year-olds +Distracted +Evening-ramblings

originally posted on bubblews 9/30/14

Sometimes....

Today we went to a restaurant for lunch.  Our waitress made me slightly nostalgic for my days of waiting tables or even just working.  I had a career for awhile.  I was a senior buyer when I left my job to be a stay at home mother.   I seemed to come into contact with real people who I connected with.  I don't know.  It was just a feeling.

I've been having this feeling lately that I should return to work.  not just part time.  full-time.  back to life. 

A Poem, But Not My Own

http://www.bubblews.com/news/9781951-the-wayfarer

I really enjoyed this poem.

The Fat Yogi

Yoga was depressing today.  I'm the fattest yogi in the room.  I need to lose weight.  I hope that this money comes through soon.  I want to join weight watchers right after Christmas.  I need a kick in the behind from something.

Yoga and Mirrors

I've mentioned before my need to lose weight.  Although I am quite aware of this, it still was somewhat discouraging to see myself at my yoga class today. 

The renovation of our yoga room included the addition of mirrors. 

Mirrors!  Yikes!

I look pregnant.  No joking. 

It didn't help that today I wore my biggest oldest sloppy t-shirt which ended up being too loose to be comfortable for yoga.  I kept needing to pull it down.  Annoying. 

Yes, there is a benefit to the mirrors.  I can see my form better.  And (although I look crappy in weight, my form is not bad) yes, that is good in the long run. 

However, right here and now in the short run, I am seeing my fat body in the mirrors and I do not like what I see.    It's not that I never look in mirrors at home.  However, at home, I am not standing in warrior one pose looking at my big ol' pudgy belly. 

I hope to start a weight loss plan after the holidays.   In the meanwhile, I'll continue to exercise. 

And I'll do my best to keep my eyes off the mirrors. 

Christmas Traditions: The Annual Ornament

Do you have many Christmas traditions?

It's my most favorite time of the year because of the rich traditions celebrated by my friends and family. 

One fun tradition is the annual ornament for each of my children.  I actually started doing this when I was merely an aunt.  My nieces and nephew were able to benefit from this fabulous idea and the fact that I was not yet a mom.

When my own children started to arrive, I was thrilled at the prospect of continuing the tradition with them. 

My five children have the following themes for ornaments:  #1 is planes, #2 is trains, #3 is rocking horses, #4 is birds, and #5 is Santas.

Some years I will buy them an additional ornament if they are particularly interested in something like a superhero or a Disney princess. 

A couple years ago, I changed the tradition just a bit by starting to give them their ornaments on St. Nicholas Day. 

The past two Christmas seasons have been tough due to the loss of my oldest child.  One thing I will always do though is buy his annual airplane.  He'll always be a part of our traditions.

Can You Do a Headstand?

I've been doing yoga for around 3.5 months now.  Previously I have written about the progress I have made since my beginning.  

Today we did headstands. 

In the beginning, I wouldn't even attempt a headstand.

The funny thing is that I was quite athletic in my youth doing things like cartwheels, front flips, back bends, backward walkovers, and the like.  Now when I see that stuff, i wonder how I never did such things!

However, I must say that I am getting more brave.  I will now do a tripod which is a beginner version of a headstand.  And I will do a head/hand stand against the wall. 

I am getting there. 

Considering that I used to do stuff like this all the time, I'm confident that I will eventually be able to do a handstand completely unassisted. 

The question is when?